Directed by Lourdes Portillo
A few years ago I found myself in a state of nearly paralyzing cancer-haunted despair when a dream re-framed my relationship with my illness, my past and whatever the future holds for me. I decided to turn the experience into an animated film. In the resulting State of Grace (TRT 3:47) my waking loneliness and despondency migrate into a dream state, in which I am slowly encircled by deceased family members, ancestors and mythical figures from my motherland of Mexico. In a single moment, in which time is both fleeting and eternal, our collective sorrow and pain yields to illumination. As with the dream itself, the film culminates in an unexpected state of grace and replaces my despair with hope and gratitude.
With my collaborator, animator Andrew Benson, I wove together image, music and voice-over narration to follow a path from disconsolate darkness into the light of life, wherever it may lead.